Anahata- “unhurt, unstruck, unbeaten” & The Pericardium

The Anahata is the Sanskrit word for heart chakra. The pericardium (heart sac) is the protector of the heart.

Here is the definition of the pericardium’s functions I found on a great site:

The name Pericardium comes from Latin Peri (around) and Cardium (heart). Often translated from Chinese as “Heart Protector”, “Spirit Protector”, or “Circulation/Sex” the Pericardium is associated with the Fire element and the Heart. The Pericardium protects the Heart from emotional trauma, constricts the chest to protect the Heart, and helps to express the Joy of the Heart. The pericardium helps regulate circulation in the major blood vessels running in and out of the heart. The network of the Pericardium includes the pericardial sac, the Pericardium meridian, the small intestine, and parts of the brain associated with the Pericardium channel.’


In essence if it wasn’t for the pericardium any minor emotional issue would be like a blow to the heart.

I’d like to share with you a personal experience that has propelled me to change an outdated belief system that has kept me emotionally stagnant for many years in the hope that more of you can come to terms with what it means to actually love yourself.

I allowed someone to break my heart for the second time after two years. He is someone who I feel eternally connected to so it doesn’t really matter if we are not together. I have come to the realisation that he is an EU and avoidant personality type, which is why I am attracted to him. My dad has a lot of the same issues although for different reasons. I was brought up only seeing him sporadically. Although we are very much connected we do not speak regularly. I naturally attracted someone into my life romantically who I believed would heal my inner child; the child who’s needs were not met perhaps in the longed for setting of a nuclear family. It is love but he is not there for me in the physical reality in the same way my father isn’t (this is not a negative judgement on my part, merely a clear way to view the situation).

I knew this truth for a long time deep down but decided to bury my feelings for two years until he wrote me a letter probably with the need to unburden himself of all the feelings he could not articulate in the past. I was grateful for the much needed closure however did not foresee us reuniting at any point in the near future. My SLE (Systemic Lupus Erythematosus) progressed to attack my heart sac in the space of the last week of February 2018 when the universe deemed our reunion to be due. Pains began the day after Valentine’s Day (coincidentally) when I was having a heart scan. Difficulty breathing ensued and inability to lie down properly in the evenings. For the first time I became consciously aware of the weight of the condition and how quickly it can progress if your body is exposed to stress.

My breathing was very shallow all week and I had this sense that some kind of ending was imminent. I thought that it was divine timing when he messaged me a couple of days prior to my departure and so I felt compelled to see him again. Ofcourse it ended in tears, because he was the last trigger which would make me realise that through all this emotional suffering I was never really lacking my counterpart’s love but merely my own. But this epiphany came later when things got really bad!

I was hysterical for days after. Every thought was usurped by him and I felt like I was going insane. My chest was tense from all the crying and my breathing got worse. I woke up in the middle of the night unable to breathe properly on the 1st of March after days of burning sensations in my throat and heart chakra regions. I went to hospital that night and it turned out that I was suffering from inflammation of the heart sac most likely brought on by my lupus.

Barring the purely physical reasons for developing SLE, there is another dimension to every disease and it is psychosomatic. So even though it is the lupus that caused the inflammation, I think that it decided to affect the heart region next to teach me a lesson about love. I don’t think I would’ve learnt this any other way since my mind had very literally taken over and squashed my heart space so tightly that the only way for it to show me my own capacity to love myself was to push itself to physical breaking point

It was truly a wake up call and I am thankful for that.

With Lupus as well it is a manifestation of constantly attacking oneself in the form of inner criticism and inflexibility. I’m learning so much now that I have this urge to write about my inner realisations. It is a time of great change I feel for many of us on the planet. 2018 = 2+1+8 = 11 = master number of manifestation for balancing the ‘me’ and the ‘we’. It is also the year of the dog in the Chinese calendar which is an earth energy great for much needed collective emotional grounding and acceptance.

I hope that my heart will expand now in ways it hasn’t before and carry on being my greatest teacher.

Moral of the story: we must honour our pericardiums, honour our boundaries and thereby honour ourselves so that when the illusion of “lack” comes up it will dissipate as quickly as it emerges.





To Fellow Animals

I’m sorry for all the crimes we commit,

our animal brothers and sisters.

For seemingly there is a difference

between our hair and your whiskers.


It is unthinkable for most that you are capable of feeling.

Sentient and beautiful children of god, equal in meaning.


I’m sorry for the Treblinka we swore

would never follow us into the future.

For the blood and the gore –

For the pain and the torture.


It is difficult to believe,

for we are unable to perceive god’s law.



I’m sorry we cannot do more.


Photo Location: Manchester Pig Save, Tulip Meats.


Lupus Reversal on Raw Vegan Road

“Your food will become your medicine, and your medicine will be your food” – Hippocrates

“Non-violence leads to the highest ethics, which is the goal of all evolution. Until we stop harming all other living beings, we are still savages” – Thomas Alva Edison

Having been recently diagnosed with Lupus (a chronic auto-immune disease) I was offered medication to treat my chronically occurring symptoms since March 2017 consisting of joint pains, rashes on my neck and chest, as well as hair loss, hypertension and fatigue.

In case you are not familiar with this disease the symptoms are almost invisible to the outsider. I had two months where I would wake up and couldn’t stretch my fingers, feet and legs due to the pain, as well as knee and elbow pain where I could barely walk up and down the stairs. I started dancing and I had to take pain killers regularly. At the moment my hands ache throughout the day and the left side of my throat is permamnently inflamed creating difficulty swallowing. Of course depressive states and anxiety surface as well.

The medication I was offered is a type of medication used to treat Malaria called hydroxychloroquine and is used in severe cases of Lupus. I’ve read a lot about the disease and am aware of it being life-threatening if left untreated. The problem being I am very much against conventional medicine if the disease is caught in its early stages of development and genuinely believe that diet is the best medicine for reversing auto-immune diseases.

My emotional relationship to food has dictated my lifestyle for as long as I can remember. I always knew that the emotional component must be tackled first. My relationship to fatty foods caused an overgrowth of Candida in me two years ago which led to increased inflammation in my body. This is around the time I transitioned to veganism for ethical reasons. I was eating a lot of cooked foods starchy foods and sugary foods.

When I was diagnosed with Lupus I began to understand the link between the ‘leaky gut’ syndrome (caused by a toxemic cooked diet and antibiotics), candida overgrowth, inflammation and ultimate disease. The disease is just a manifestation of the toxicity my body has been exposed to for my whole life.

Due to various conflicting nutritional stances I was not able to understand which food path to take and continued to have an emotional relationship with food and unhealthy vegan diet. To add fuel to fire I had a terribly stressful second year at university both academically and socially AND I was working in coffee at the time so I was on the verge of burnout (which surprisingly is not newfound territory).

I then read about cases of people healing themselves from Lupus and other auto-immune diseases on the raw vegan diet! I found a very interesting article on where the author explains how ‘with a “cooked” internal environment any and all sugars are harmful. With a “raw” internal environment fruit sugars are welcome and healthy’ ( — this makes perfect sense to me now re. curing Candida, thereby inflammation and thereby Lupus. Also, according to Dr. Junger (author of ‘Clean Gut’ – who I have spoken to personally) the ‘leaky gut’ syndrome is the root cause of disease. He advised me to take l-glutamine and probiotics to repair my gut walls whilst detoxing.

SO…I am going to adopt the raw vegan lifestyle from the 16th of January 2018, on the new moon in Capricorn (great time to plant some motivational seeds 😉 to facilitate both physical and emotional healing. In the meantime I am incorporating one raw vegan meal into my day (either a fruit salad, or veg/leafy green salad) to give my body a gradual and not sudden transition.

I’ll be posting and reposting recipes here on my blog and any articles I find. I will be honest about any cravings for cooked food I get whilst on the diet which I’m sure will surface after a couple of weeks. If I persevere I’m interested how this will transform my emotional relationship to food and hopefully fingers crossed reverse the Lupus… So far I’ve been eating one raw meal for two days — very excited to see where this takes me 🙂

If you are reading this and also suffer from an auto-immune disease but are on the raw road to healing and want to buddy up re. sharing recipes please get in touch! Let’s support each other 🙂


Photo Location: Bolivia, Road to Salar de Uyuni



To Wander

I cannot control any longer

I’m letting my heart write the rest

If I be so brave to wander

I choose to dismantle my nest


       Reality is but a perspective.

       Truth encompasses the whole. 


– Nicole Alina

Photo Location: Ollantaytambo, Peru


Dirt roads, tyres…

Blue and beige landscape fires

Ignited by the sun.


Gentle grey backs of the Andes

Pay vigil along the journey

Crowds of rocks and grass plants gather

Seemingly still and innocent

Yet most certainly conspiring.


Clumps of “Ichu” abound

The “Puña” grasslands confound…


Once the peaks here were islands

Surrounded by higher lakes

When the earth’s climate was cooler –

Fossils and shorelines speak of their fate.

– Nicole Alina

Photo Location: On the way to Maras, Peru

The Sailor’s Cat

The Sailor’s cat was always there,

Awaiting boats –

His peaceful stare.


Ruminating on a Sailor’s life,

Desiring travel,

But also a wife.


He thought a bit about the pros

Of sailing on “The Bloody Rose”

Through stormy seas

And blustery breeze

To conquer lands

And bring disease


But then he had a sudden change of heart

The sunshine spoke to him in part

Of staying home inside the port

To watch more boats without more thought

Because in truth sometimes its best

To dream a dream from your own nest

The land afar will tempt you so

But you will hold to what you know.


– Nicole Alina

Photo Location: Xorto Village, Pelion, Magnesia, Greece.